Prologue
She wasn't the prettiest girl. She wasn't the smartest, nor the nicest, nor the most popular girl. She was just Catherine, a girl who got good grades, but yet felt dumb. She enjoyed wearing makeup to try to make herself look beautiful, but yet she never felt pretty enough. Catherine didn't have low self-esteem though, she was just never good enough. Guys didn't chase after her at all, and her friends stabbed her in the back so often that she actually felt like there was a knife stuck right in between her shoulder blades. Catherine was just Catherine, but that never seemed to be enough.
I
Catherine woke up that day, wishing that her school wasn't open on Mondays. She got dressed in a simple outfit, a T-shirt and jeans. Catherine put her sandy blonde hair in a ponytail and hair clip, and swiped a few strokes of eyeliner under her eyes. She stuck in her earphones, turned on her favorite playlist, and headed to school through the morning fog.
Once at school, Catherine walked like a shadow through the halls. She was indifferent to most everyone she saw in her path, the druggies that stood by the nearest exits, the jocks that leaned against lockers and talked about their latest hook-ups. She walked monotonously to her private corner, except for the few moments of walking past Lucas, where her breathing accelerated only slightly, before she calmed down. When she got to her corner, her two best friends were there, Cara and Jenny. They waved and smiled, knowing that the volume at which Catherine was listening to her music was at much too high of a decible for her to hear them say their hellos. So at this point, Catherine took off her headphones and slumped to the ground.
"You saw him, didn't you?" Jenny immediately noticed Catherine's said, lovebitten face. Catherine nodded indifferently, her angst too much of a concern for real dialogue.
"Catherine, you have got to do something about this! You can't just pretend like you don't notice him. He probably knows that you like him, so just talk to him."
Cara always sounded so matter of fact, like it was almost too easy to walk up to the guy that you are completely in love with and say, "Hey, I like you, let's go to the movies." But then again, she had been dating Jonathan since the beginning of their sophomore year in high school, almost a year ago. Catherine's last boyfriend was a shy kid who wasn't good around girls.
"I can't, OK? Sure, he's perfect, and of course he knows I like him, but I just can't! Lucas is just Lucas, and our social status' are completely opposite. He is a star basketball player, and I'm a lowly softball player," Catherine explained for about the hundreth time.
"So? He's not exactly popular, I mean, the guys on the basketball team don't even like him, except for Shawn."
While Jenny brought up a good point, she had defeat in her voice. She knew that she was fighting a losing battle, Catherine would never talk to Lucas, unless he talked to her first. Too bad that Catherine couldn't predict the future.
II
Being the first day of school, that day wasn't entirely unpredictable. The teachers spent the period explaining the rules nobody followed, and the students texted and talked freely for the majority of each class. However, Catherine wrote. She enjoyed dabbling short stories in her notebooks, it released any pent up anger as well as the other raw emotions Catherine carried inside. She wasn't even paying attention when he walked up to her.
"Hey, you're Catherine right? I'm Lucas, uh...Lucas Scott."
Catherine just about had a stroke. He wasn't possibly talking to her, was he? There had to be another Catherine next to her, a prettier, more social Catherine. She looked around, but no one was paying attention. There must be a mistake, because she wasn't...
"Your name is Catherine isn't it?"
He spoke again, this time resting his hand on her desk. He had to be talking to her.
But Catherine was too shocked to speak, she just nodded.
"OK. I'm sorry I bothered you," he sounded unsure, which caused Catherine to almost scream. This had to be a dream, because Lucas Scott was a popular athlete, and guys like that never did two things: They never spoke to unpopular nerds, and they never sounded unsure. And yet, Catherine was sure that she heard his voice waver, and she was 100 percent positive that he was talking to her. So as he walked away, Catherine knew that she had to take action.
"Wait," she choked out. Lucas revolved back around to face her. She looked up for the first time, and her heart swelled. She could feel the adrenaline pumping, the moisture creeping into her palms. She felt like her throat was closing. The inability to breathe caused Catherine to panic even more, worsening the situation.
"Are you OK?" Lucas asked. Catherine nodded quickly, and exhaled. She could do this.
"Did you...did you want somethign earlier?" Catherine managed to stutter out.
"Umm...I just wanted to say hi?" Lucas said nervously. Catherine was even more puzzled, the situation was becoming more freaky by the minute. She knew he was lying, so she took another deep breath, and spoke again.
"OK. Hi, I'm Catherine Hart. You probably don't know me--"
"Yeah I do."
"You do, how?"
Catherine was beyond bewilderment now. She was sure that she was going insane, that her mind was decaying, that she had early onset Alzheimer's...
"Ummm..."
The bell rang, and Lucas shot out of the classroom. Catherine was relieved, yet disappointed. She had always been a curious person, and she saw the fear in Lucas' eyes long enough to know that he was hiding something. The strange thing was, he was hiding something about her....
Catherine was still puzzled by her situation when she got to Physics. She sat next to Jenny, and explained the entire story, line for line to her best friend.
"Really, he said he knows you?"
"Yeah, but I don't know how. I mean, I play sports, but he hasn't been to a softball or tennis thing. I'm in Drama, and he may go to the plays, but I'm sure that's not what he meant. Otherwise, he would have said that's how he knew me. He seemed like he knew me personally..."
"I don't know. I mean, maybe he's a stalker....Or maybe he facebooked you...or maybe he's just really good at reading people-"
"Girls, what's so intriguing that it can't wait?" Mr. Shindz interrupted.
"Nothing, I was just asking Jenny if she had heard the latest Fall Out Boy song," Catherine said cooly, although her cheeks were hot with embarassment. Of all of the things in the world, she hated being called out for doing something wrong in class. After all, she wasn't good with getting pointed out. The most social contact she had besides friendships was asking a teacher for the notes from a day she was absent.
"Well, I'm sure this song can wait until after class," Mr. Shindz answered curtly, and proceeded with the lecture. Jenny gave Catherine a quick thumbs up, before they both began to furiously scribble what was on the board.
Catherine was relieved when lunch time had arrived. While she was happy to have survived the first five classes, sixth period couldn't have came sooner. She still hadn't solved the "Lucas Puzzle", but that would all become fresh in her mind after some solid nourishment. So Catherine wasn't expecting to run into Lucas yet again, this time in more of a literal sense of the term.
"I'm so sorry...." Catherine trailed off when she saw with whom she had collided.
Lucas smiled his confident, glittering smile. He seemed to have forgotten all about his actions this morning, so Catherine decided to forget them to, for the time being.
"It's OK, I wasn't paying attention either," Lucas replied. He sounded so kind, that Catherine almost believed that he was the cause of the accident. But that didn't stop her from glancing at the book in his hands.
"Y...you're reading Steinbeck?"
"Yeah? Why do you sound so surprised?"
Catherine was finally in her element. Books were something she could discuss with anyone, even the man she was madly in love with.
"It's just, the only classical book I've ever seen someone read in this school, in there spare time no less, was Huck and Finn. And that's a true classic. But Grapes of Wrath, when I checked that out from the library, there was actually dust collecting on the pages, it had been that long since anyone had touched it."
"That's a shame, because this is a great book," Lucas noted.
Catherine nodded, smiling a little bit. He was so perfect, that the revelation was bittersweet. He loved books, good music, he was kind, athletic, just perfect. But that also led her to believe that he couldn't ever possibly like someone like her, even in some kind of alternate and crazy reality.
But of course, some realities do hold such thoughts.
V
After lunch, Catherine's mind was still stuck on Lucas. She couldn't believe that she could be more in love with him, but suddenly, she felt like she was. It was like a piece of her soul had came to her, and it melded right into her mind and heart. She wasn't sure what to make of this new feeling, but whatever it was, it scared her beyond reason.
Seventh hour math was horror. The whole time, Catherine was staring at the back of Lucas' head, admiring how perfectly his sandy blonde hair lay in rows. She admired how casual yet beautifully he dressed in a smart T-shirt and jeans. She loved every aspect of him, down to his white Nikes. When the bell rang, Catherine was reluctant to leave, she didn't want this moment to fade.
Finally, the last bell rang, Catherine rushed out of eighth hour and out the doors to her car. Her heart was beating faster than it ever had before, she was begging that she wouldn't run into him. Fate must've been on her side, because Catherine made it to her car without a Lucas sighting and sped off to her house so she could wind down and listen to music, any music that would stop her heart from beating out of her chest.
Day Two: I
Catherine briefly looked back on the previous day, a smile coming on. She was ready now, and even though she wasn't sure what the day would bring, she could tell it was a good day.
But then, Catherine got to school. She saw Lucas, and her mind lost control to her heart. The palpitations and sweating began, as he neared closer and closer to her.
"Hey Catherine, I was wondering, do you want to maybe go to a movie tomorrow?"
Catherine was surprised at how easily it came out of his mouth, like he had no trouble saying it at all. After the initial reaction, sadness swept over her; Catherine knew he probably had lots of experience in the area.
"Sure, but you pick a movie, I'm terrible at deciding," Catherine said, before screaming at herself. Why would she ever say such a thing. Then again, when she was around Lucas, she lost control of her own voice, and just spoke.
"OK, I'll send you a text a little later, I gotta return the book," Lucas said waving The Grapes of Wrath in the air. Catherine smiled, bid Lucas goodbye, and hurried off to find her friends and share the good news. No, make that the great news.
II
The rest of the day flew by fairly quickly. Although Lucas was in Catherine's seventh hour, the two barely had anytime to talk. He texted her a movie time and that was all, until tomorrow night. Tonight was a football game, and Catherine, being in the good mood that she was, decided to go and cheer on the football team, even though they played poorly.
Once at the football game, Catherine spotted them, what the movie Mean Girls would definitely consider "the Plastics". The leader, Rachelle, wasn't exactly the stereotypical version of amazing. Yeah, she was gorgeous, but she also played basketball and was extremely tall. Then, there was Elma, Catherine's ex-best friend. She didn't really fit into the group and they only used her for her fortune and to round out the threesome. Lastly was Kara, she was never the type to be in the popular crowd, but the fact that she was the prettiest girl in the whole school, and the most talented singer caused Rachelle to take action. As they walked by Catherine, they whispered angrily, presumably about Lucas asking her out. Catherine smiled and waved, "Hey girls!" she said sarcastically before walking to meet Lucas.
"Hey," Catherine said casually. She was a little more relaxed around him, but she still went toward the tendency to flee.
Lucas smiled, and the two took a seat on the cold bleachers.
"So, I haven't been able to ask you all day, is the movie choice OK?" Lucas asked.
"Yeah, I love comedies," Catherine said with a smile.
"Alright, good. But I don't know, maybe an action movie would be better," Lucas mentioned unsurely.
Catherine shrugged, "Action's alright too," she said nervously. The more she got closer to Lucas, the more she wanted to pull away. It was her own curse, whenever a guy found out she liked them, she avoided that at any point necessary. She hated it, but it was the whole fight or flight scenario, and Catherine had always chosen to run. Hopefully, that wouldn't be an issue with Lucas at the movie...
She wasn't the prettiest girl. She wasn't the smartest, nor the nicest, nor the most popular girl. She was just Catherine, a girl who got good grades, but yet felt dumb. She enjoyed wearing makeup to try to make herself look beautiful, but yet she never felt pretty enough. Catherine didn't have low self-esteem though, she was just never good enough. Guys didn't chase after her at all, and her friends stabbed her in the back so often that she actually felt like there was a knife stuck right in between her shoulder blades. Catherine was just Catherine, but that never seemed to be enough.
I
Catherine woke up that day, wishing that her school wasn't open on Mondays. She got dressed in a simple outfit, a T-shirt and jeans. Catherine put her sandy blonde hair in a ponytail and hair clip, and swiped a few strokes of eyeliner under her eyes. She stuck in her earphones, turned on her favorite playlist, and headed to school through the morning fog.
Once at school, Catherine walked like a shadow through the halls. She was indifferent to most everyone she saw in her path, the druggies that stood by the nearest exits, the jocks that leaned against lockers and talked about their latest hook-ups. She walked monotonously to her private corner, except for the few moments of walking past Lucas, where her breathing accelerated only slightly, before she calmed down. When she got to her corner, her two best friends were there, Cara and Jenny. They waved and smiled, knowing that the volume at which Catherine was listening to her music was at much too high of a decible for her to hear them say their hellos. So at this point, Catherine took off her headphones and slumped to the ground.
"You saw him, didn't you?" Jenny immediately noticed Catherine's said, lovebitten face. Catherine nodded indifferently, her angst too much of a concern for real dialogue.
"Catherine, you have got to do something about this! You can't just pretend like you don't notice him. He probably knows that you like him, so just talk to him."
Cara always sounded so matter of fact, like it was almost too easy to walk up to the guy that you are completely in love with and say, "Hey, I like you, let's go to the movies." But then again, she had been dating Jonathan since the beginning of their sophomore year in high school, almost a year ago. Catherine's last boyfriend was a shy kid who wasn't good around girls.
"I can't, OK? Sure, he's perfect, and of course he knows I like him, but I just can't! Lucas is just Lucas, and our social status' are completely opposite. He is a star basketball player, and I'm a lowly softball player," Catherine explained for about the hundreth time.
"So? He's not exactly popular, I mean, the guys on the basketball team don't even like him, except for Shawn."
While Jenny brought up a good point, she had defeat in her voice. She knew that she was fighting a losing battle, Catherine would never talk to Lucas, unless he talked to her first. Too bad that Catherine couldn't predict the future.
II
Being the first day of school, that day wasn't entirely unpredictable. The teachers spent the period explaining the rules nobody followed, and the students texted and talked freely for the majority of each class. However, Catherine wrote. She enjoyed dabbling short stories in her notebooks, it released any pent up anger as well as the other raw emotions Catherine carried inside. She wasn't even paying attention when he walked up to her.
"Hey, you're Catherine right? I'm Lucas, uh...Lucas Scott."
Catherine just about had a stroke. He wasn't possibly talking to her, was he? There had to be another Catherine next to her, a prettier, more social Catherine. She looked around, but no one was paying attention. There must be a mistake, because she wasn't...
"Your name is Catherine isn't it?"
He spoke again, this time resting his hand on her desk. He had to be talking to her.
But Catherine was too shocked to speak, she just nodded.
"OK. I'm sorry I bothered you," he sounded unsure, which caused Catherine to almost scream. This had to be a dream, because Lucas Scott was a popular athlete, and guys like that never did two things: They never spoke to unpopular nerds, and they never sounded unsure. And yet, Catherine was sure that she heard his voice waver, and she was 100 percent positive that he was talking to her. So as he walked away, Catherine knew that she had to take action.
"Wait," she choked out. Lucas revolved back around to face her. She looked up for the first time, and her heart swelled. She could feel the adrenaline pumping, the moisture creeping into her palms. She felt like her throat was closing. The inability to breathe caused Catherine to panic even more, worsening the situation.
"Are you OK?" Lucas asked. Catherine nodded quickly, and exhaled. She could do this.
"Did you...did you want somethign earlier?" Catherine managed to stutter out.
"Umm...I just wanted to say hi?" Lucas said nervously. Catherine was even more puzzled, the situation was becoming more freaky by the minute. She knew he was lying, so she took another deep breath, and spoke again.
"OK. Hi, I'm Catherine Hart. You probably don't know me--"
"Yeah I do."
"You do, how?"
Catherine was beyond bewilderment now. She was sure that she was going insane, that her mind was decaying, that she had early onset Alzheimer's...
"Ummm..."
The bell rang, and Lucas shot out of the classroom. Catherine was relieved, yet disappointed. She had always been a curious person, and she saw the fear in Lucas' eyes long enough to know that he was hiding something. The strange thing was, he was hiding something about her....
Catherine was still puzzled by her situation when she got to Physics. She sat next to Jenny, and explained the entire story, line for line to her best friend.
"Really, he said he knows you?"
"Yeah, but I don't know how. I mean, I play sports, but he hasn't been to a softball or tennis thing. I'm in Drama, and he may go to the plays, but I'm sure that's not what he meant. Otherwise, he would have said that's how he knew me. He seemed like he knew me personally..."
"I don't know. I mean, maybe he's a stalker....Or maybe he facebooked you...or maybe he's just really good at reading people-"
"Girls, what's so intriguing that it can't wait?" Mr. Shindz interrupted.
"Nothing, I was just asking Jenny if she had heard the latest Fall Out Boy song," Catherine said cooly, although her cheeks were hot with embarassment. Of all of the things in the world, she hated being called out for doing something wrong in class. After all, she wasn't good with getting pointed out. The most social contact she had besides friendships was asking a teacher for the notes from a day she was absent.
"Well, I'm sure this song can wait until after class," Mr. Shindz answered curtly, and proceeded with the lecture. Jenny gave Catherine a quick thumbs up, before they both began to furiously scribble what was on the board.
Catherine was relieved when lunch time had arrived. While she was happy to have survived the first five classes, sixth period couldn't have came sooner. She still hadn't solved the "Lucas Puzzle", but that would all become fresh in her mind after some solid nourishment. So Catherine wasn't expecting to run into Lucas yet again, this time in more of a literal sense of the term.
"I'm so sorry...." Catherine trailed off when she saw with whom she had collided.
Lucas smiled his confident, glittering smile. He seemed to have forgotten all about his actions this morning, so Catherine decided to forget them to, for the time being.
"It's OK, I wasn't paying attention either," Lucas replied. He sounded so kind, that Catherine almost believed that he was the cause of the accident. But that didn't stop her from glancing at the book in his hands.
"Y...you're reading Steinbeck?"
"Yeah? Why do you sound so surprised?"
Catherine was finally in her element. Books were something she could discuss with anyone, even the man she was madly in love with.
"It's just, the only classical book I've ever seen someone read in this school, in there spare time no less, was Huck and Finn. And that's a true classic. But Grapes of Wrath, when I checked that out from the library, there was actually dust collecting on the pages, it had been that long since anyone had touched it."
"That's a shame, because this is a great book," Lucas noted.
Catherine nodded, smiling a little bit. He was so perfect, that the revelation was bittersweet. He loved books, good music, he was kind, athletic, just perfect. But that also led her to believe that he couldn't ever possibly like someone like her, even in some kind of alternate and crazy reality.
But of course, some realities do hold such thoughts.
V
After lunch, Catherine's mind was still stuck on Lucas. She couldn't believe that she could be more in love with him, but suddenly, she felt like she was. It was like a piece of her soul had came to her, and it melded right into her mind and heart. She wasn't sure what to make of this new feeling, but whatever it was, it scared her beyond reason.
Seventh hour math was horror. The whole time, Catherine was staring at the back of Lucas' head, admiring how perfectly his sandy blonde hair lay in rows. She admired how casual yet beautifully he dressed in a smart T-shirt and jeans. She loved every aspect of him, down to his white Nikes. When the bell rang, Catherine was reluctant to leave, she didn't want this moment to fade.
Finally, the last bell rang, Catherine rushed out of eighth hour and out the doors to her car. Her heart was beating faster than it ever had before, she was begging that she wouldn't run into him. Fate must've been on her side, because Catherine made it to her car without a Lucas sighting and sped off to her house so she could wind down and listen to music, any music that would stop her heart from beating out of her chest.
Day Two: I
Catherine briefly looked back on the previous day, a smile coming on. She was ready now, and even though she wasn't sure what the day would bring, she could tell it was a good day.
But then, Catherine got to school. She saw Lucas, and her mind lost control to her heart. The palpitations and sweating began, as he neared closer and closer to her.
"Hey Catherine, I was wondering, do you want to maybe go to a movie tomorrow?"
Catherine was surprised at how easily it came out of his mouth, like he had no trouble saying it at all. After the initial reaction, sadness swept over her; Catherine knew he probably had lots of experience in the area.
"Sure, but you pick a movie, I'm terrible at deciding," Catherine said, before screaming at herself. Why would she ever say such a thing. Then again, when she was around Lucas, she lost control of her own voice, and just spoke.
"OK, I'll send you a text a little later, I gotta return the book," Lucas said waving The Grapes of Wrath in the air. Catherine smiled, bid Lucas goodbye, and hurried off to find her friends and share the good news. No, make that the great news.
II
The rest of the day flew by fairly quickly. Although Lucas was in Catherine's seventh hour, the two barely had anytime to talk. He texted her a movie time and that was all, until tomorrow night. Tonight was a football game, and Catherine, being in the good mood that she was, decided to go and cheer on the football team, even though they played poorly.
Once at the football game, Catherine spotted them, what the movie Mean Girls would definitely consider "the Plastics". The leader, Rachelle, wasn't exactly the stereotypical version of amazing. Yeah, she was gorgeous, but she also played basketball and was extremely tall. Then, there was Elma, Catherine's ex-best friend. She didn't really fit into the group and they only used her for her fortune and to round out the threesome. Lastly was Kara, she was never the type to be in the popular crowd, but the fact that she was the prettiest girl in the whole school, and the most talented singer caused Rachelle to take action. As they walked by Catherine, they whispered angrily, presumably about Lucas asking her out. Catherine smiled and waved, "Hey girls!" she said sarcastically before walking to meet Lucas.
"Hey," Catherine said casually. She was a little more relaxed around him, but she still went toward the tendency to flee.
Lucas smiled, and the two took a seat on the cold bleachers.
"So, I haven't been able to ask you all day, is the movie choice OK?" Lucas asked.
"Yeah, I love comedies," Catherine said with a smile.
"Alright, good. But I don't know, maybe an action movie would be better," Lucas mentioned unsurely.
Catherine shrugged, "Action's alright too," she said nervously. The more she got closer to Lucas, the more she wanted to pull away. It was her own curse, whenever a guy found out she liked them, she avoided that at any point necessary. She hated it, but it was the whole fight or flight scenario, and Catherine had always chosen to run. Hopefully, that wouldn't be an issue with Lucas at the movie...